Cyber Stalking

That's what it's come down to. I'm separated from most of my loved ones as I have chosen to reside in a cute Midwestern suburb. I've made a few friends but my old and cherished ones, as well as most of my family, are far away. How do I cope with this constant loss? Well, I peer into their lives as much as possible via social media forums. Facebook is a particular fave. I read it like some read the morning paper - scouring it for the latest news and gossip in my friends' and families' lives.

And then there are the few ex-boyfriends on there that I just can't resist checking in on. I mean, really, when else in history did we have the chance to snoop into an old flame's life so frequently without the cops issuing a restraining order? Most of them (not like there are that many) are leading the same boring life as me - professional, 2.2 kids, living in the suburbs, maybe forming a cover band to play at block parties if they used to be in bands in college; you know the type. But occasionally I get to peer into a life that is way different then mine - the life of the serial monogamist.

Take for instance a past love, I'll call him Rick, whose been engaged 3 times since we broke up in 1994 but never married. I've read his "wall" where he and his girlfriend at the time would exchange lovey-dovey messages, announce that they're moving in together only to post a month later "Rick went from being in a relationship" to "single". This has happened twice in the last two years. I feel guilty even looking at such personal news, but then again, it's out there. Maybe he's even reading this post right now. I guess I'll know soon if I'm "unfriended".

So yes, pathetic as it may be, I do it. I bet you do too - why else would you be here?
Oh and, please don't unfriend me!